A Second Life…

November 1994

Turning back the pages of life, to a memory that brought us back from the demon’s eye and dropped us into God’s lap. I hardly remember an ounce of the incident, as I was just 2 years old. The only image that I can sketch is from my mom and dad’s eyes and their deeply rooted wounds.

Like every other family, mine was equally excited about the upcoming Diwali vacation. It was a trip to a holy destination, a well-known religious place of all Jains “Palitana”. And my sister had been more happy about it because it was my first holiday with everyone. A trip with the little one that gave them a special reason to cherish. But, none of us was aware of the forthcoming darkness that Diwali was about to bring.

Faces glued with delight and sparkles of the festive season, 5 of us: my dearest Nani, mom, dad, sister and tiny me, we started our awaited trip. Oh..I missed out the main person, our driver who supposedly was the lead of our journey, a journey which took a disastrous U-turn after 5 hours.

Till the time we had our lunch the journey had been a smooth one, waves of laughter were being shared and tiny me was being cuddled. Post lunch, everyone was about to doze off, tiny me was already asleep in my daddy’s lap seated on the front seat. And just before our lives revolved my dad placed me back seat, in my mom’s lap.

The clock ticked 3:00 pm, everyone was asleep and the lead person “Our Driver”, who wasn’t supposed to sleep, even he drowsed. Our car which was moving at a speed of 100, hit the tree roadside and the car shredded into 2 parts, the front glass crackled into pieces and damaged my dad’s entire face. My mom and Nani were hit by the front seats and everyone in the car was unconscious except my sister. Her bravery and smartness that day saved every one of us. She started screaming out “Help..! Help..!” as much as she could and by God’s grace, a passing car stopped by, for our help.

The generous person who stopped by was MLA of the district. He picked my sister out of the car and started looking out for everyone else in the car. When he looked at my father, he felt that he was no more and so he just dumped him in the trunk of his car. He hurriedly pulled everyone and rushed to the nearest hospital. Throughout the journey, he was worried about how many would survive the crash, along with my dad he had thought that even my mom or Nani’s life would end. Apart from everyone else in the car, the only lucky person to survive without any bruises was “ME”. The change from front seat to back seat was the fate that God had planned for me.

The days had been tough and the most dreadful ones. While my family member from our hometown reached the hospital which almost took them a day, we had seen Humanity taking a birth in that hospital. My dad, mom and Nani were a victim of major injuries and were under observation for the entire time. They were in a situation where it was hard to recognize them by their face or voice. And all the while when I and my sister were all alone, the natives of that little town took care of us. Not only did they handle us but they made sure my family had enough food and necessities to survive. By the time, my family reached we already had a little family who looked after us. By God’s grace and prayers chanted for my family, all of us survived the disaster and recovered within months.

Today when I hear this story for like nth time, my soul still trembles. What if I had been in the front seat? What if my sister too had been unconscious? What if the MLA would not have cared to stop? What if every one of us had been a victim of devil’s plan? What if God had not been kind to us? What if in the hospital no one had looked after me and my sister? And on and on, thoughts which might not be that meaningful to everyone but that’s what has made my family fall in love with our treasured life. Tear’s bowl down my eyes when I think of how grateful God had been to my family. The scars and wounds still appear fresh on my mom and dad’s face but the storm has made our belief in God and Humanity strong enough to love our life more and more.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Cloud of Emotions

Have you ever wondered what our life is exactly dependent on? What is rightly needed to get going in the flow of Life? What can save our relations and What can help us prevent the damage?

The key element to all the above questions is : EMOTIONS..!!

I am sure now you might be scratching your head thinking what the term “EMOTIONS” has to do in living a life which can be a level close to what we exactly need.

Well, everything that we do, that we speak, that we express and that we relate is because of different emotions dwelling in our mind and heart.

Emotions like

Happiness (Khushiyo ki Baarish)

Sadness (Kaale Baadal)

Anger (Khatraa)

Fear (Darr ke aage Jeet)

Surprise (Taufa taufa aya aya)

Happiness(The smiles, The Laughters)

A sheer thought of being happy brings back a smile. Happiness is not just a word, it’s rather a feeling. We humans are amazing creatures, for US

Happiness is the extra masala puri that we demand from the panipuri wala,

Happiness is the extra dhaniya that we demand for free from vegetable vendor,

Happiness is demanding discount in a restaurant thinking that GST would be somehow managed in that discount,

Happiness is watching tom and jerry, shin chan and all the favourite cartoon series no matter how old we grow.

These days, finding happiness has been like a treasure hunt for each one of us. Rather than searching for happiness in big things we always should treasure the little moments of happiness gifted.

Sadness(The Pain)

The state of stress, the state of feeling left out and the state of finding life useless.

The most disturbing emotion is being sad, when a person is sad even the handsome amount in his/her bank can never fill up the pain craving in their heart.

One has to remember sadness won’t last long, and it’s just a matter of time. There might be hours of darkness but there will be the brighter side awaiting.

Often when a person is sad, thinks of ending up their life or running away from the chaos. But one has to remember we are here to fight not to escape. Sadness might give you pain for couple of hours or even days, but it will definitely make you strong enough to keep going.

Anger (The Destruction)

The RAGE, the HARSH WORDS, the terrible FIGHTS and the HURT are the biggest threat for any relation. A moment of anger and a thousand wrong words spill from our mouth.

Why is that it has been hard to control the words and the burning fire?

Why do we often forget that the rage can tear down a relation which has taken a lifetime to build?

Personally, even I have a grumpy nature, but lately have realized preventing the damage would be an easier task than regretting for not saving a relation for lifetime.

At times, it’s good to get angry but knowing that it should be within limits, an anger within LOC helps people bring close and the warmth of love and care swirls back in the relation.

Always remember anything above limits is always harmful. Let the rage bring you close and not build a wall in blessed relations.

Fear (The Uglier Site)

Fear something that brings goosebumps.Fear that could be of anything like

jumping off from cliff, diving in ocean, sleeping in haunted room, lying around to save relations,stage fear, not visiting a doctor assuming he might prick the needle ..ouch that pain which is almost like a red ant sucking our blood.

So basically, fear is just a thought that dwells in our mind and often obstructs us from not facing it. Like every other individual even I had certain fears one being “Acrophobia” and for me to look down from a 5 storey apartment was like looking down from cliff. So, for once I did think of facing it, and the craziest thing I did was Sky Diving trust me between the clouds and above the ocean I was scared like shit. I wont say that I have conquered my fear totally, but yes I now have strength to face it. There would be many stages ahead in life wherein we might have to face the fright for days and days. So becoming weak is an act of cowardness, rather facing it will not only make you strong but will help you gain self-confidence.

Surprises (The Winning One)

A person who is surprise freak would have already started day dreaming about it.

Surprises are meant for every single relation may it be your mother, father, sister, brother, grandparents, 3-year-old kid, a friend, a teacher, a colleague or your loved one. Why is that giving a surprise has been so important these days, there are certain days where words wont do a pretty job which a surprise definitely can. What would it cost you to earn a million bucks smile your loved one? A rose or a smallest gift..thats it..!! We are in an era where our social media minds have been trapped in just whatsapping or surfing. We often tend to forget to express what do our loved one’s mean to us.

Have often heard people saying that celebrating birthdays, anniversaries and remembering dates is futile. It’s all about cherishing the memorable days, not that every day has to be celebrated but some special dates should be revisited.

Cherish the days before it’s too late, make your loved one’s feel special before the love fades away. A smallest surprise can blossom your relation every single day. Keep a check on how much your smallest effort can make you win their hearts.

P.S: Let Happiness hop in your way,

Let Sadness not shade your life,

Let Anger not anchor your words,

Let the Fear be your confidant,

Let the Surprises stream your life..!!

 

The Three Rounds of Trial and Error~Arranged Meetings

11th Feb                                                                                                                                        Sunday Morning 11:00 am

Maahi, a girl in her mid 20’s, her innocent face and her coy eyes itself explained a lot about everything that was running in her mind.  While on her way to a Stranger’s home(Sahil’s home), she kept on murmuring

“Who the hell wakes up so early on pretty Sunday morning? Oh God..What am i gonna ask him? In next few minutes i would be scanned by everyone.I hope this one ends in one round itself”. The road to Sahil’s home was still 30 mins away so she chose to shut down the thoughts and take a nap.

On the other hand, Sahil just like Maahi was not prepared for the arrange setup. In between all the leg pulling was going at his home, he heard his excited brother screaming, “Bhaiya bhabhi has arrived”. Hearing this Sahil shouted at his brother and asked him to keep mum for next few hours.

At the Entrance, Elders started greeting each other and just then Maahi’s eyes met Sahil’s, and they smiled a little and glanced away.

While elders were trying to connect the dots of each other’s family, Sahil’s mom took consent of Maahi’s parents and asked Sahil to show Maahi his room(The common plot for the round 1 meeting).

ROUND 1: Sahil’s room

Sahil (Breaking the ice between them) : Hey Maahi, you know what, only thing I liked about arranged meeting is finally a girl has entered my room.

Maahi(Chuckled) : Her fear had now disappeared, Sahil’s ice breaking attempt succeeded. They both smiled.

Sahil : Maahi, let’s do 1 thing. You might have gone through my bio data and I almost have mugged up your’s so rather than asking the same things. Lets try something new. Let’s have a round of test.

Maahi: Sounds interesting..!! So you mean, we will ask the same set of questions of course has to be the one described in our bio data’s and will see how much we know about each other. Right?

Sahil: Exactly, just an attempt to make this “Arranged Setup” easier for us. Ok, so Ladies first.(Sahil passed a pen and paper to Maahi and took one for him)

Maahi: That was cheezy. ha ha..! Lets have a round of 7 questions and we can note it down and can give the score cards at the end.

They started shooting questions about each other like:

D.O.B, Place of Birth, Native, Siblings, College Certification, Hobbies, Current job and the last one being a blind question for both of them.

They asked each other what were their opinion for a life partner. Maahi had to answer Sahil’s choice of his life partner and vice versa.

The round of questions was now over.

Maahi: So Mr. Sahil, please reveal my score card. I am pretty sure I might have nailed it.

Sahil: Mam, you sound confident, well then you are right. 6 out of 7.

Maahi: Wooho, see I told you. By the way you are no less. 6 out of 7 for you as well.

Sahil: Shall I pinch you? Haha just kidding. We have mugged up our bio data’s pretty well.

And just then, Sahil’s mischievous brother knocked and informed them that snacks had been served.

Sahil and Maahi smiled at each other and joined everyone in the Dinning area.

After this, Maahi’s family left for their home. A common settlement had been decided of “We will let you know our opinion in a day or two.”

13th Feb (Tring Tring)

Maahi and Sahil had made up their mind for a round 2 meeting and the same had been communicated over the phone by each other’s parents. So 14th Feb was the second “DATE”

14th Feb, 4:00 pm, The Iris House

Sahil and Maahi reached the venue right on time, they greeted each other. They seemed to be more comfortable this time.

Maahi (Looking around the cozy couples holding hands in the coffee-house): Sahil  “Why did our parents choose this day. I mean Its Valentines, A day for couples and what are we doing here, trying to be a couple??”

Sahil: Ha Ha..!! Maahi relax relax, forget the day and date. Lets just enjoy each other’s company as we did in the first round.

Maahi(Blushed..!! As she was again impressed by Sahil’s way of handling her): Well ya, you are right.

Just then, waiter arrived, they ordered coffee and started chit chatting about their likes dislikes, the way they want to see their life, how their families are, what would they expect and on and on

Maahi’s phone interrupted the ongoing sweet conversation and it was a call from her home. From the other end, her mother teased her asking: Maahi Would you be returning back home today or not? Shall we finalize the dates? Maahi blushed and hunged up the phone saying “Maa, I am coming home, we will talk about it later”

Sahil: Wow, its been 2 long hours, and we did not realize it. So Maahi What next?

Maahi: Looks like, some one is in hurry to get the answer. You will get your answer in a day or two.

Sahil: Ok Mam, I will be waiting.

And here with, the second round ended well. Smile of sanctification was seen on their faces.

16th Feb

Maahi’s parents conveyed the message to Sahil’s parents, that they were ready to move ahead. They even asked their consent for letting Sahil and Maahi exchange their phone numbers if Sahil wanted to move ahead.

16th Feb, 9:00 pm

Maahi’s phone beeped.

A message from Sahil: So mam, I now know your answer. ha ha..

Maahi: Smart enough Mr.

And later on their phone conversations kept on going for a month.

Round 3 (So called meet, which is set up just to finalize the Dates)

20th March, Maahi’s home

This being just the formal one. The comfort level between both the families was now on next level. Everyone present there knew that it was a YES from both. Sahil and Maahi throughout the third meeting kept on blushing and had already started talking with each other by passing some eye signals or the so called love signals. Everyone present there had their eyes on them and teasing went on for the entire day with sounds of laughter inside the room.

Sahil and Maahi tied the knot a month later and were now a happily married couple.

P.S : Some processes in life are to be accepted the way they are just like one being the Arranged Meetings. Things will definitely turn out to be great sooner or later.

So, just Take it simple silly..!!

Darkness…

To one of those rare winter evening..

After illuminating the city with its warmest rays, the sun had now settled between the swaying leaves. The city streets which kept on buzzing for the entire day were now silent. Hardly few tea and coffee shops were open across the roadside. While everyone buried them self in their coziest homes, she walked along the aisle of the river.

A lady with beautiful brown eyes and raven black hair, gently paced along the empty streets. She appeared to be lost somewhere in her own world, as if she was searching for something along the river side.

She kept on walking till she found a wooden bench located in the dark corner. Seeing that her face lighted up with a smile as if she had found a treasure box. The darkest corner of the city seemed to be her end of search.

After a stressful day at work and a monotonous routine, she found a source of happiness in that little hidden corner. With thousand of thoughts running in her mind, she muttered: this place is all i need for the rest of my life. Far away from the chaos of life the silence here carries my heart away. There’s no one to grumble about me, no one to point me out at how should I behave, no one to teach me the norms of society and no one to rule my life.

While she thought about all this a smile of deep satisfaction rolled over her face. It appeared as she had finally smiled after ages. She realized it’s not that darkness always comes with loneliness or emptiness. May be the world has just mistaken it. There are times in life when being in the loneliest corner can teach you wonders. The ones that are not taught by the inspirational videos that are stuck on the internet. At one point of time inspiration, motivation, happiness, tears, satisfaction has to come from within us and this can be sensed only by spending some time far away from the muddled world.

This winter evening had been the warmest one for her, though the city was covered with brisk but there was fire within her. She was ignited by the happiness that little wooden bench made her realize.

Her mind and heart were now in common acceptance and she perceived : “Nothing in life is dark or empty, it’s just our perception. We always see a half filled glass as empty and often forget that it is half filled too. It all depends on us, how we discover our life and how we let our thoughts shape it. Yes, there might be odd days too where things might just not fall in place and when no one would be by your side but that’s not the end. We ourself can heal our soul and probably in a much better way than anyone else can do for us. Labelling darkness as a gloomy thing is just not the right approach, darkness actually comes with so much peace and happiness. The silence teaches us the hardest chapters of life in the easiest way.”

With all this beautiful thoughts and a new perception towards life she started walking back.Just few steps and she paused a bit, turned back and waved good-bye to the little wooden bench: “Good Bye my Happy Dark Corner, I shall see you soon..!!”

 

 

The Victim..!!

10:00 PM                                                                                                                        Noida, India
The dark sky swept across the silent streets of the city. Huge buildings across the streets stood like a monster ready to gulp the city. The security guard’s who were responsible for people’s safety were already half asleep securing their dreams. The only visible light being the flickering signal lights gave a hope of safety when Aarohi walked down the street.
Aarohi, 27-year-old, a girl with wheatish skin, sharp features and shinning black hair wore a beautiful floral blue dress covering her head with a pashmina shawl. The street where she rambled was a part of her everyday routine. Aarohi worked in a Well known IT company 2 lanes behind this street.

While she  walked along the lane, a brisk black Audi passed by her side. The shawl covering her head plunged by the wind-blown by the snappy car. She was taken a back by what she had just heard, someone from the car had shouted : “Hey lady, get inside our car..!!” Aarohi was stumped, she paused for a while, looked back and thought was it wise enough to return back. Having traveled almost more than half way there was no point returning back and with this thought she moved ahead. On her way she kept on murmuring “Aarohi this is the same route you have been hiking on since 3 years and it’s totally safe, nothings gonna happen you will reach home in next 15 mins.

As she moved ahead, she saw the same Audi taking a U-turn and coming on her way. Her breath sank and she started running in the opposite direction. Within few seconds the car spotted her and she was horrified, 2 furious young men came out and pulled her inside and one more on the front seat who used abusive words to call her inside. Aarohi tried every bit to save herself but all her efforts went in vain. She kept on shouting “Don’t pull me, someone help help..!!” There was no one to hear her sobbing scream.

And in few minutes all her belongings dropped on the road and she was in the car.

Inside the car, her hands were pulled tightly by the one seating on backseat and the other one holding her legs who was on the front seat. She tried every bit to save herself,  kept on impelling her hands and legs in every direction she could.

Slowly slowly, she had lost all her strength and could no more resist. With every single minute she could feel the pain, her clothes were ripped off one by one. She was in deep shock, hardly could she shout or utter a word. The rage in her eyes had now turned into shame. The only thought that she had

how will she face the world now?

What’s going to happen next?

Will they kill me? And If they don’t kill me, I would kill myself..!!

And in next one hour when the lust of the demon had been satisfied they kicked her out of the car on the footpath. There was no one on the road side and for a change Aarohi felt good about it. She was scared to face the world now. She tried getting up but failed not only once but thrice. She regained some energy, stood up and started figuring out the road. While she walked, her eyes, her mind, her heart still could not accept what had just happened with her. She thought of killing herself on her way back but for every time she thought to do so, the pity eyes which had been waiting for her at home stopped her from doing so. She knew she had to live for her parents and in no chance she could end her life.

Every moment on her way back, she thought if the devils who brought her to this stage Will even be punished? Will she get justice? Will the society accept her? Will her parents be able to face the world? Will she lead a normal life? What if every thing goes wrong? What if tomorrow she would be in the highlights of newspaper with a title “Aarohi Sharma : a middle-class family girl gang RAPED..!!”  Every inch of her body still could feel the pain and the marks given by them, she wanted to rub it off, tear her skin and hide in some corner and never get out of it.

She was now at the doorstep of her home, she ranged the bell and her dad opened the door. Her dad was scared by her condition, she hurriedly got inside and broke down. She kept on howling and shouting.  Even without speaking a word, her parents were clear of what had happened with her. They tried getting every detail of who had done this to her. For the entire night she kept on weeping and her parents who were already speechless tried consoling her.

This was not the end of the story, the actual tragedy happened next morning when Aarohi and her parents decided not to raise voice against what had happened with Aarohi. They all decided to forget the entire trauma as soon as possible. Just like every other middle class family, rather than fighting for justice they were worried more about the society.

And with this, One more chapter was masked and a smile was coated on the sore face. Although it took years for Aarohi to clear off the scars and lead a new life.

This forces me to think : What was her fault? Why was she been asked to keep her mouth shut? Was she doing something wrong on the street? If it was about her clothes then she was actually covered in a complete Indian attire, not even a drench of her body was visible. Why is that the fear of society kills our confidence?

In the country where we reside, every other day a girl like Aarohi is forced to live a dead life.

P. S : Wish Girls on this planet can soon enjoy their life in peace, without any fright of loosing their own self. One must not forget every girl is a daughter, a wife,a mother and a sister for someone, lets protect them and not make them a living dead soul.

 

A Room of Fear..!!

And it was a night before her solo trip. Deep inside she was scared, she wanted to lock her in her comfort zone and never come out of it.

It was first time that Anjali, a young and a charming 22-year-old girl, had got the biggest opportunity from her corporate firm and had to travel to The United States of America the other morning for 3 months. 

Like every other girl, she had no courage to face it all alone. She had often tried to delay this opportunity in every other way she could. But now it was getting over her head. She knew one day this had to happen and so today was the day. 

Anjali actually was bold and smart but some how, she had a fear of going out of her own space. She always felt that the world outside had their eagle eye on her and that they would always wait for her to commit a mistake. Although she had always been an optimistic person, but like all of us even she had some hidden fright. 

So Anjali, who was just like us in every other way, thought of taking up this challenge and giving it a try. 

Yes, you read it right — She chose to face her fear (Not all of us have the same spirit)

The other morning, while at the airport when she was about to board her first flight, she actually looked like a 2-year-old kid whose candy had been stolen. She was much horrified from inside but on her face she never let that appear. With full confidence she boarded the flight and landed in Chicago. Her first journey boosted her so much that it almost appeared like she had known this unknown city for long.

So the next step was again a rooted fear – staying alone in a Hotel room.. But that day it turned out to be different. All of sudden when she entered the room it felt like it was a pleasant one. Though at night she was a bit scared but she kept on fighting with her mind and later slept in peace.

The next 3 months turned out like a miracle for her. Yes at times she did face some difficulties, like she often used to forget the roads and end up in almost opposite direction. But she had learnt that even the wrong paths might end up in a beautiful experience. Even at her work place, people around her turned out to be friends with her in no time and which eventually helped her in performing better and better.

Anjali had found a new soul inside her. Her fear had disappeared like a bubble popping from a soap-bubble. It just took 16 hours of flight to make her confident enough. That’s how her story changed and keeping aside all the minor hurdles she always succeeded. 

So what exactly is this FEAR???

Fear which can be of any type.. may it be a fear of darkness,or of height, or of water, or of being alone,or of travelling and on and on.

But the question here lies is : Does Fear actually exist?? 

The answer to it is “NO“. In real fear is just an abstract thought in our mind. How we actually face our fear depends on us. The more we give importance to our fear the more it suppresses us.

So, Believe in your self and just face it once. Never let your FEAR kill your confidence.