A Second Life…

November 1994

Turning back the pages of life, to a memory that brought us back from the demon’s eye and dropped us into God’s lap. I hardly remember an ounce of the incident, as I was just 2 years old. The only image that I can sketch is from my mom and dad’s eyes and their deeply rooted wounds.

Like every other family, mine was equally excited about the upcoming Diwali vacation. It was a trip to a holy destination, a well-known religious place of all Jains “Palitana”. And my sister had been more happy about it because it was my first holiday with everyone. A trip with the little one that gave them a special reason to cherish. But, none of us was aware of the forthcoming darkness that Diwali was about to bring.

Faces glued with delight and sparkles of the festive season, 5 of us: my dearest Nani, mom, dad, sister and tiny me, we started our awaited trip. Oh..I missed out the main person, our driver who supposedly was the lead of our journey, a journey which took a disastrous U-turn after 5 hours.

Till the time we had our lunch the journey had been a smooth one, waves of laughter were being shared and tiny me was being cuddled. Post lunch, everyone was about to doze off, tiny me was already asleep in my daddy’s lap seated on the front seat. And just before our lives revolved my dad placed me back seat, in my mom’s lap.

The clock ticked 3:00 pm, everyone was asleep and the lead person “Our Driver”, who wasn’t supposed to sleep, even he drowsed. Our car which was moving at a speed of 100, hit the tree roadside and the car shredded into 2 parts, the front glass crackled into pieces and damaged my dad’s entire face. My mom and Nani were hit by the front seats and everyone in the car was unconscious except my sister. Her bravery and smartness that day saved every one of us. She started screaming out “Help..! Help..!” as much as she could and by God’s grace, a passing car stopped by, for our help.

The generous person who stopped by was MLA of the district. He picked my sister out of the car and started looking out for everyone else in the car. When he looked at my father, he felt that he was no more and so he just dumped him in the trunk of his car. He hurriedly pulled everyone and rushed to the nearest hospital. Throughout the journey, he was worried about how many would survive the crash, along with my dad he had thought that even my mom or Nani’s life would end. Apart from everyone else in the car, the only lucky person to survive without any bruises was “ME”. The change from front seat to back seat was the fate that God had planned for me.

The days had been tough and the most dreadful ones. While my family member from our hometown reached the hospital which almost took them a day, we had seen Humanity taking a birth in that hospital. My dad, mom and Nani were a victim of major injuries and were under observation for the entire time. They were in a situation where it was hard to recognize them by their face or voice. And all the while when I and my sister were all alone, the natives of that little town took care of us. Not only did they handle us but they made sure my family had enough food and necessities to survive. By the time, my family reached we already had a little family who looked after us. By God’s grace and prayers chanted for my family, all of us survived the disaster and recovered within months.

Today when I hear this story for like nth time, my soul still trembles. What if I had been in the front seat? What if my sister too had been unconscious? What if the MLA would not have cared to stop? What if every one of us had been a victim of devil’s plan? What if God had not been kind to us? What if in the hospital no one had looked after me and my sister? And on and on, thoughts which might not be that meaningful to everyone but that’s what has made my family fall in love with our treasured life. Tear’s bowl down my eyes when I think of how grateful God had been to my family. The scars and wounds still appear fresh on my mom and dad’s face but the storm has made our belief in God and Humanity strong enough to love our life more and more.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Broken Promises…

Meet Avni and Aarush, the lovebirds who had been together for 5 long years. Madly in love with each other, their morning would start with their video calls and nights would end up again on their video calls. Be it Instagram, whatsapp, facebook, snapchat and what not, they were always connected to each other. The weirdos were so much into each other, that they actually had made their own 7 vows (they were a kind of saat janmo ke Saathi)

The VOWS (Which were strictly followed until one fine day)

  1. We will never abuse each other
  2. We will never hide things
  3. Aarush to stop his smoking
  4. Avni to stop her over thinking and be confident of herself
  5. No matter how hard the fight gets, never should one think of leaving each other
  6. We will forever support each other’s dream
  7. The last being, staying loyal and committed to each other for the entire life

Their life seemed to be pretty easy and following such vows made their relationship much stronger. But a relationship is never as smooth as it appears. Before meeting Avni, Aarush had been a chain smoker and it took a lot for Avni to get him rid off his smoking habit. Whenever in stress, Avni would hold his hand and pamper him like a 2-year-old baby. She knew the right way to get him off from his addiction, was to love him as much as she could. And with passing time, with Avni’s constant support Aarush was able to quit his smoking.

The hollow cracks started appearing when Aarush changed his job, the pressure of a new job dragged him into his old addiction – “The Dirty Smoke”. And the worst thing Aarush chose was to hide it from Avni, but as they say, a lie finds its own way to spill out. One fine day, Avni found a box of cigarettes in his car and she chose to confront him. Aarush with shame in his eyes told her the truth. Instead of getting angry, Avni had tears in her eyes, in a flash, she could sense the old Aarush( “The Chain Smoker”) taking rebirth. Aarush consoled her and once again promised her, that he would never do it again.

Avni’s overthinking power had a great impact, she could somehow sense that the pond was getting dirtier. And Aarush would always cover his broken promise saying everything is fine and that he has stopped smoking(The LIE). Aarush most of the times had been under stress, maybe because he had a chirpy boss and that the new workplace was a dirty one. But Avni would always lend her ears to all the chaos going inside Aarush. Avni at times was hurt since Aarush had started confining him into his own space and not letting Avni enter into it. Despite all the odd’s, she supported him until the second warning bell rang.

On one of their evening meet, Aarush pissed off of his work, started venting out all his anger on Avni and even blamed her for not allowing him to smoke. Avni was shocked to see Arush’s dramatic change. The words that he babbled had thumped her heart. Avni was broken and she realized the disaster had already begun. Heartbroken Avni left the place with tears in her eyes. The very next day Aarush called her up and apologized for his bad behaviour, Avni for one last time gave him a chance and asked him to stop it right away. Ever since his second mistake, Aarush had started hiding things a lot and some of the other way Avni would always discover the truth. As they say, Universe has the power to bring out the truth. Every time when Aarush got caught, he would get angry on Avni for spying him and would block her for like days on social media. Day by day, their relationship was falling apart and Avni could no longer get her Aarush back. With every broken promise, Aarush made Avni go a step away, he never did try to get her back instead gave her the pain which she could barely hold off.

It wasn’t just about the bad addiction but every time he did so, he disrespected Avni, and his rage made him do things which tore her apart. The third bell wasn’t just a warning it was a “Runaway” sign for Avni. Avni caught Aarush in a lounge, getting intimate with a girl. To this, he did not seem to be sorry but instead left the place with the other girl. And this was the time, Avni had to finally get out of the shit that Aarush had brought in. Aarush had started heading on a road that seemed to be a dark one. His sky was covered with smoke and ground was covered with ashes. There was no room for Avni in his life, she was shattered and disheartened.

Aarush and Avni, once madly in love were now miles apart. The tale of their love had ended with every broken promise.

P.S: It takes a moment to bind a relationship with a promise, but it takes lifelong to adhere to it. Think wise, before committing one.

Cloud of Emotions

Have you ever wondered what our life is exactly dependent on? What is rightly needed to get going in the flow of Life? What can save our relations and What can help us prevent the damage?

The key element to all the above questions is : EMOTIONS..!!

I am sure now you might be scratching your head thinking what the term “EMOTIONS” has to do in living a life which can be a level close to what we exactly need.

Well, everything that we do, that we speak, that we express and that we relate is because of different emotions dwelling in our mind and heart.

Emotions like

Happiness (Khushiyo ki Baarish)

Sadness (Kaale Baadal)

Anger (Khatraa)

Fear (Darr ke aage Jeet)

Surprise (Taufa taufa aya aya)

Happiness(The smiles, The Laughters)

A sheer thought of being happy brings back a smile. Happiness is not just a word, it’s rather a feeling. We humans are amazing creatures, for US

Happiness is the extra masala puri that we demand from the panipuri wala,

Happiness is the extra dhaniya that we demand for free from vegetable vendor,

Happiness is demanding discount in a restaurant thinking that GST would be somehow managed in that discount,

Happiness is watching tom and jerry, shin chan and all the favourite cartoon series no matter how old we grow.

These days, finding happiness has been like a treasure hunt for each one of us. Rather than searching for happiness in big things we always should treasure the little moments of happiness gifted.

Sadness(The Pain)

The state of stress, the state of feeling left out and the state of finding life useless.

The most disturbing emotion is being sad, when a person is sad even the handsome amount in his/her bank can never fill up the pain craving in their heart.

One has to remember sadness won’t last long, and it’s just a matter of time. There might be hours of darkness but there will be the brighter side awaiting.

Often when a person is sad, thinks of ending up their life or running away from the chaos. But one has to remember we are here to fight not to escape. Sadness might give you pain for couple of hours or even days, but it will definitely make you strong enough to keep going.

Anger (The Destruction)

The RAGE, the HARSH WORDS, the terrible FIGHTS and the HURT are the biggest threat for any relation. A moment of anger and a thousand wrong words spill from our mouth.

Why is that it has been hard to control the words and the burning fire?

Why do we often forget that the rage can tear down a relation which has taken a lifetime to build?

Personally, even I have a grumpy nature, but lately have realized preventing the damage would be an easier task than regretting for not saving a relation for lifetime.

At times, it’s good to get angry but knowing that it should be within limits, an anger within LOC helps people bring close and the warmth of love and care swirls back in the relation.

Always remember anything above limits is always harmful. Let the rage bring you close and not build a wall in blessed relations.

Fear (The Uglier Site)

Fear something that brings goosebumps.Fear that could be of anything like

jumping off from cliff, diving in ocean, sleeping in haunted room, lying around to save relations,stage fear, not visiting a doctor assuming he might prick the needle ..ouch that pain which is almost like a red ant sucking our blood.

So basically, fear is just a thought that dwells in our mind and often obstructs us from not facing it. Like every other individual even I had certain fears one being “Acrophobia” and for me to look down from a 5 storey apartment was like looking down from cliff. So, for once I did think of facing it, and the craziest thing I did was Sky Diving trust me between the clouds and above the ocean I was scared like shit. I wont say that I have conquered my fear totally, but yes I now have strength to face it. There would be many stages ahead in life wherein we might have to face the fright for days and days. So becoming weak is an act of cowardness, rather facing it will not only make you strong but will help you gain self-confidence.

Surprises (The Winning One)

A person who is surprise freak would have already started day dreaming about it.

Surprises are meant for every single relation may it be your mother, father, sister, brother, grandparents, 3-year-old kid, a friend, a teacher, a colleague or your loved one. Why is that giving a surprise has been so important these days, there are certain days where words wont do a pretty job which a surprise definitely can. What would it cost you to earn a million bucks smile your loved one? A rose or a smallest gift..thats it..!! We are in an era where our social media minds have been trapped in just whatsapping or surfing. We often tend to forget to express what do our loved one’s mean to us.

Have often heard people saying that celebrating birthdays, anniversaries and remembering dates is futile. It’s all about cherishing the memorable days, not that every day has to be celebrated but some special dates should be revisited.

Cherish the days before it’s too late, make your loved one’s feel special before the love fades away. A smallest surprise can blossom your relation every single day. Keep a check on how much your smallest effort can make you win their hearts.

P.S: Let Happiness hop in your way,

Let Sadness not shade your life,

Let Anger not anchor your words,

Let the Fear be your confidant,

Let the Surprises stream your life..!!

 

Darkness…

To one of those rare winter evening..

After illuminating the city with its warmest rays, the sun had now settled between the swaying leaves. The city streets which kept on buzzing for the entire day were now silent. Hardly few tea and coffee shops were open across the roadside. While everyone buried them self in their coziest homes, she walked along the aisle of the river.

A lady with beautiful brown eyes and raven black hair, gently paced along the empty streets. She appeared to be lost somewhere in her own world, as if she was searching for something along the river side.

She kept on walking till she found a wooden bench located in the dark corner. Seeing that her face lighted up with a smile as if she had found a treasure box. The darkest corner of the city seemed to be her end of search.

After a stressful day at work and a monotonous routine, she found a source of happiness in that little hidden corner. With thousand of thoughts running in her mind, she muttered: this place is all i need for the rest of my life. Far away from the chaos of life the silence here carries my heart away. There’s no one to grumble about me, no one to point me out at how should I behave, no one to teach me the norms of society and no one to rule my life.

While she thought about all this a smile of deep satisfaction rolled over her face. It appeared as she had finally smiled after ages. She realized it’s not that darkness always comes with loneliness or emptiness. May be the world has just mistaken it. There are times in life when being in the loneliest corner can teach you wonders. The ones that are not taught by the inspirational videos that are stuck on the internet. At one point of time inspiration, motivation, happiness, tears, satisfaction has to come from within us and this can be sensed only by spending some time far away from the muddled world.

This winter evening had been the warmest one for her, though the city was covered with brisk but there was fire within her. She was ignited by the happiness that little wooden bench made her realize.

Her mind and heart were now in common acceptance and she perceived : “Nothing in life is dark or empty, it’s just our perception. We always see a half filled glass as empty and often forget that it is half filled too. It all depends on us, how we discover our life and how we let our thoughts shape it. Yes, there might be odd days too where things might just not fall in place and when no one would be by your side but that’s not the end. We ourself can heal our soul and probably in a much better way than anyone else can do for us. Labelling darkness as a gloomy thing is just not the right approach, darkness actually comes with so much peace and happiness. The silence teaches us the hardest chapters of life in the easiest way.”

With all this beautiful thoughts and a new perception towards life she started walking back.Just few steps and she paused a bit, turned back and waved good-bye to the little wooden bench: “Good Bye my Happy Dark Corner, I shall see you soon..!!”